I know it's been awile since i've done any kind of update and for that i'm sorry. Just been busy with classes and major procrastination. So today I feel like rambling about everything and nothing. Here I go...
* I love songs about heartbreak, love lost, and pondering past mistakes... songs like "Shiver," "You Love Me," "Someday You Will Be Loved," etc. really do speak to me , mostly cause I can relate to pondering about 'what if...', longing to be with the girl, but end up coming short. It's the story of my life (cliche I know, but there's no other way to say it.) - wanting to tell the gilr how I feel, but screwed over in the end.
* Wendesday, my friend Mar, his friend, Kyle, and I were involved in a deep discussion about religion. Kyle's a secular Catholic and Mar is an atheist. Of course, there were serious arguments thrown back and forth. For the record, I consider myself to be agnostic - I beleive in God, but not in organized religion - and both Kyle and Mar made me think. What did I take from their exchange? In the end, people are going to beleive whatever they feel makes sense to them. The fact that both of them could talk so passionately about their viewpoints and at the end BS about golf is truly amazing.
* Speaking about having conversations with friends, Monday, I ran into Clarissa. She was working at Ralph's collecting carts people leave around the parking lot, so I basically acted as company. She has a boyfriend she's been on-again, off-again and their celebrating their one-year and five month aniversary (a belated congrats in advance, you two!).
I ask how she does it.
She says that it's not that hard, you just have to care for one another deeply (or something like that). Then she says when you stop trying so hard to look for someone, eventually that person finds you.
Hmm, where am I going with this?
I guess what I should take from this is to stop worrying, enjoy being single, and do what I'm best at: listening to everyoone else's stories/problems with thier boyfriends/girlfriends. I might just learn something from them about how to go forward in a relationship of my own.
* I think too much.
Way too much.
I can't help it.
I can't stand talking about MTV and reality TV and who Paris Hilton screwed this week, and I don't care much listening to it, especially during the Bush years, when more of my generation cared more about American Idol and The Hills than about how the Bush cronies were lying to Americans about a war in Iraq or how personal freedoms were being sacrificed to the altar for a false sense of security, while Republicans in Congress looked the other way, along with segments of the populous actually willing to do so in order to fight the War on Terror.
It didn't also help that I really dind't fit in with any clique in high school and mostly waisted away four years trying to fit in when I really didn't have much of a connection with 95% of the people and things other sudents were into. Somedays I just have to take a break from being angry and just enjoy the world around me, which is probably my point. What's the point in being so pissed off all the time? It gets you nowhere if you can't learn to simply walk away and see the light come in every now and then.
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